There's Something About Mary
Today is Solemnity of the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary. For those who don't know, this is the day the Church assigned to Mary leaving her earthly life and entering heaven. As someone who is slowly going back to her Catholic roots this is one of those topics that I have struggled with. The whole, leaving earth and going into heaven body and soul and others witnessing it. I can see the symbolic view of this as many other Christians believe, but with so many things in the Catholic Church it seems to be taken literal. I think this is why as a teenager who questioned and rebelled against quite a bit had trouble with religion. Although we attended church when I was little, and I was baptized and made my communion. I never went through with my confirmation because I couldn’t wrap my head around a lot of these topics, they didn’t seem to make any sense to me all.
As I have gotten older and became a mother, I started to realize how much I was craving a connection to Jesus and a church community. Once I opened my heart back up and let Jesus in I felt a warming within my heart. I was feeling lost and confused, but the more I opened up the more things I couldn't wrap my head around in the past started to make more sense. But, then my thoughts would start again, and I would start to question my belief or try to challenge my own thinking or that of the religion. I learned that this was not unusual as I read other Catholic bloggers stories to either reverting back to their faith or converting. Which made me feel less alone on this journey. - a shout out to all of those Catholic Bloggers sharing their experiences -
However, the more I would question the more I would experience. When I first felt that going back to my faith was the right decision for myself and family I started to get signs. The biggest sign however was from THE mother herself, the Blessed Mary.
I will be honest I never really thought much of Mary other than what I was taught in my religion classes as a very young child. I loved the statues of her in our family church. I remember always looking at them and feeling a sense of comfort. But I never had a relationship with Mary. A part of me didn’t even know until recently how important it was to start to dive into that relationship. I figured if she was to bring you closer to Jesus and I already was feeling like I was getting to know him better. I mean, I was finally able to say HIS name, Jesus, in my prayers, that was a huge step for me. So, I wasn’t sure what else she was supposed to be doing.
But then I remembered. The sign and the comfort she gave me just a few months ago.
A few months before I was able to comfortably say Jesus.
I was in the park with my boys and my mom. As the boys were running around the playground a card on the ground caught my eye. I walked over to it and it was a prayer card for Our Lady of Perpetual Help, aka the Virgin Mary. As I came to the realization of what the card actually was I got this warming in my heart, a knowing, that this was not an accident, that this was left for me as a sign to stay on the path I had recently started on just a few short months prior. To continue to open my heart, pray and read. I keep this prayer card tucked in my Bible and say the prayer each time I do my reading.
Although I never strayed from my faith, over the past year I have been challenged, I have had some good talks with Jesus and I have had some frustrating ones. I have started to talk to Mary more in times when I feel like I need that extra motherly support in raising my little ones and the challenges it presents not just to me but for our little family.
My studies and prayer with Mary have only just begun. I am eager to learn more on my own and as I start RCIA this fall.
O Mother of Perpetual Help, grant me ever to be able to call upon thy powerful name, since thy name is the help of the living and the salvation of the dying. Ah, Mary most pure, Mary most sweet, grant that thy name from this day forth may be to me the very breath of life. Dear Lady, delay not to come to my assistance whenever I call upon thee; for in all the temptations that assail me, in all the necessities that befall me, I will never leave off calling upon thee, ever repeating: Mary, Mary. What comfort, what sweetness, what confidence, what tenderness fills my soul at the sound of thy name, at the very thought of thee! I give thanks to our Lord, who for my sake hath given thee a name so sweet, so lovable, so mighty. But I am not content merely to speak thy name; I would utter it for very love of thee; it is my desire that love should ever remind me to name thee, Mother of Perpetual Help.
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